Retrieving my past-1:The earliest moment I can remember

Actually, I don't have any memories of my home and its surroundings where I was exactly born. Now, I see that place, which is about 1 mile north from our present house, harboring a thick bush of bananas and bamboo trees. There are not any houses anymore as this place is located in the middle of the cultivated field with no road connecting to it. My parents moved to the present place when I was 3 years old. I can't remember any circumstances before that.

The earliest moment that i can remember was the period of our house, the first house that i saw in my life, construction around 2042 B.S. Our house was made up of wood and mud with roof of rice straws & 'khar'. It was a two storied house supported with large wooden logs (called 'KHANBA')used as pillars. The moment i remember is like a snapshot, very short lasting. Still, I am curious why that moment remained so strongly in my mind. I was watching the MISTRI, a person who makes house, who was on the roof under construction. I remember he was adding some wooden beams on the south-west corner of the roof which was just above the room of my grandfather. I don't actually remember if i talked or not but i know my father was also nearby me. I don't even remember if i was standing upstairs or on the ground. That's all I remember of that time. Though almost twenty two years have passed from that time, Still this moment suddenly strikes my mind and takes me to my infancy. And I think this will remain the same during my life. Though this is very short and incomplete scenario, I will be trying to remember and dig out more mysteries behind that moment...Probably, i may wish to ask more to my parents about that time........contd.

Retrieving my past

Today, I have thought to start compiling my past memories in this blog. In one post, I will try to recall just one event/incident or any special and interesting happening in the last 26 years of my life. From Damak-Bhangbari, where I first cried with unknown reason even before i was dropped on earth, Now, I am here (College Station,TX, USA)with a salient dream to be fulfilled. Could be this a great fortune no one ever got within my paternal family before or a personal achievement with my vast efforts, labor and dedication. Whatever be the analysis underlying my journey to date, I have indeed travelled over a number of paths conflated with their both black and white parts.Of course, I have encountered many situations that confronted me towards a quicksand of impassiveness for short or long. However, I always tried to keep myself on the top discipline to ethically conjure myself into the mainstream of my life-philosophy. As a usual human being, surrounded with huge life events and experiences, I have both positive and negative entities within me....
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The Flow of Life

Summer days of Texas, hot wind blowing frequently towards unknown direction, a man inside a room alone .......Sometimes sentimental, sometimes moody, sometimes cheerful. Nothing more to think, nothing more to imagine and nothing more to believe in some dramatic change in life. Evolution, the key word for day to day prayer to every biologist, is still unable to convince me. I don't know why? I don't believe in systematic happenings and changes. There are always some dramas in the world, in the earth...and in all that we can think about. I am always different and against what is seemed obvious and usual in front of us. No one is never free from his/her responsibilities and duties that may be day to day type or never lasting in whole life. We should take it easy. We should walk slowly and in our own way, own pace. Though, it is normal conception and agreement among Physicists that; the faster we walk/move, the longer we will be living. But I don't want to live longer. I want to track my own pace on my own path...the path which tribute all the combination of components which are supposed to form a perfect life. I understand, there is no perfection in practical life but there should be perfection in feeling, at least. I like to feel....to imagine....to think.....imagination is the beginning of reality, i believe...i just believe in that......That is why I love thinking, i like virtuality......all the time.....and i am happy on that....and will remain happy forever....

Early days in TEXAS

This is Texas A & M University, a place where more than 50,000 students are in the midst of their struggles dreaming a so called, bright future. I am, of course, one of them. I arrived here at College Station on 14th of May (Wednesday). Since then, I have got chances to visit my professor, my department, the cities of College station & Bryan and their surroundings. When i first arrived at College station, it reminded me of Rampur Campus, Chitwan: especially with similar weather, the summer days with bright sun shine and hot-humid sensation. Though the hot weather condition made me feel uneasy, the green trees and lawn really amused me. As,my official paperworks at TAMU are still on wait, i don't have much things to do these days. However, I am helping departmental project works in the morning. Till now, i haven't thought about my research i.e. what and how would it be. I think, i don't need to worry much about this right now, however, definitely I have to start consultation with my professor very soon. Today, it's Monday. I am in the room: 503 cherry st.#203. The sun is very bright outside. The temperature is over 90 degree with gentle hot breeze.........MY mind is not ready to look at some books or some papers in the internet.......Rather wanna chill out watching TV and a cold coke.......

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Count down # 1

Tomorrow, the 3rd of May 2008, I am going to take part in the commencement of my graduation. I will be formally awarded with my MS degree at that ceremony. It will be a great day for me. Not only am I excited for this moment but also, am seeing some challenges confronted in front of me. My mind should be filled with joys and happiness today, but i don't know why i seem so sluggish. These all seem to be some formality to me. I am not much enthusiastic at all. Anyway, today i organized a small get together with my professors, some staff members and my friends of my department. It was really a great moment. I am so happy that most of the important personales were present in the reception including department head Dr. Sue Blodgett, distinguished professor Leon Wragie, My advisor Dr. Karl Glover, other professors Drs. Jeff Stein, Larry Osborne and Brian Louge. Their greetings and wishes really made me feel proud.

Tomorrow, I will try to write something. I am thinking some resolutions for my draduation day of MS degree but till now i have not found any. I have one but i don't like to regret by disobeying my own promise. So, still i am thinking about it. Let's see....what best thing could i do for this...

It is already 12:21 am. So, it's the time to say GOOD NITE Brookings.

2222 10th st#6
Brookings, SD, 57006

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Count down # 6

Just six days left for my graduation ceremony. I am excited to appear on that commencement. However, I have to petition for my late submission of attendance card for that ceremony. It has already been one week late. So, I am not sure if the office of Registrar's will accept this. Any way, i will be graduated from that day.

Today, I did not do any remarkable work. Visiting few friends and some coffee talks took my most of the day time off. I have started writing something on my blog each day. So, I have started my first effort with count down # 6. I hope this work will get continuity for long ahead. Tomorrow, i have few things to be done: Go to the administration office, Buy a hat for graduation day, submit some forms/papers for graduation, and start writing manuscript of my journal paper.

This is all for today.

Good nite brookings!
2222 10th st. #6, Brookings, SD, 57006

One week away

I have a bunch of works to be accomplished this week.
I have to work on my paper manuscript. This is the most important task for this week.
Similarly, I have to focus on some NeSA's works. There are two major tasks:1. Distributing 'certificate of appreciation' to the 'Nepal Nite 2008'contributors. 2. About Donation from NeSA(We are planning to provide some money to Nepal based social works). Then finally, i am participating in graduation ceremony on May 3. 2008 (Saturday). I need to be prepared for that day. Then in next week, i will be leaving Brookings. Now i need to prepare my schedule for all these work profiles. Now a days, i am getting disoriented....I am not able to manage time. I don't know how these happening? Okey, now it's the time to focus and concentrate towards these major points. I have to get these done in any way....I should and i must...

FOCUS:MOVE

It's has been very long since i post my last blog. After NEPAL NITE, I remained busy with my thesis work. As soon as I submitted my first draft, my focus headed towards GRE test. I had set 13 whole days to get me prepared for this test. I had no options than sitting for the test on March 15. I was mentally prepared for the test in spite of the very short time for preparation. Fortunately, I did not lose my confidence during that constricted period. March 15 was really a big day for me. It nearly drove me towards foiling. Today, i submitted my second thesis draft which was a past due, to my advisor. Tomorrow, most probably I will have a meeting with my advisor to fix a date for my final oral examination (MS Thesis defense). Then i have some wheat lines for crossing starting from tomorrow. After that i have to again concentrate to prepare final copy of my thesis. Then time comes for final oral exam preparation. By 15th of April I have to get that done. Then after, I have some works to be accomplished in winter wheat breeding lab before i leave. It will take couple of days to get that done. Thus, i will start to wrap up my jobs at Brookings, SD. This is how, My Time Limit will end an episode and invite a new one .....

Peace

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Today : No Thesis Work

Though I had a concealed plan to allot couple of hours for my thesis work today. But, unfortunately, i could not make it. Actually i accomplished a lot of tasks in concert with my workfellows. So, my day was satisfactory. My day was started after i came alive at 8:15 am in the morning. Though i was hearing some phone calls, i could not dare to accept those before that. Yesterday my Valentine's day was incomplete. So, i did have just one option to rationalize my weakness through a call with indulgent voices. I became successful on that. So, i was in a happy mood this morning. I expended two calling cards to wrap up our sweet whisper. Then after, i started my daily job of NN08 season. I was almost busy till 5.00 o'clock. When i was just about to open some pages of my thesis draft, i saw some suggestions and feedbacks regarding our ticket sale in my email box. Then I talked to Saurav immediately and make a plan of door to door ticket sale campaign. Then we called a meeting in no time. We (Me, Saurav, Rajendra, Manish, Rojan & Praja) successfully got through it by 11:30 pm. Hoping with some progress tomorrow, i came back home and informed about this campaign via NeSA mail.

At last, i could not sleep without dropping few words on my blog.......
"GOOD NITE" Brookings, 2222 10th st., SD.
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Cell phone , Nepal Nite & My Thesis

Magically, I lost my cell phone yesterday. I know i never walked outside in the icy waves. We had a meeting regarding Nepal Nite 2008 at Saurav's apartment. So, from the room i hardly crawled less than hundred feet to the car. I had replied a last phone call at around 9:30. Then, when our meeting ended at 11:30, surprisingly my cell phone was lost. I searched every corner in the meeting room (Saurav's living room) but i became hopeless. I went to the car to see if i dropped somewhere inside it. I forgot the cold and started cleaning the garbage inside the car, that was piled up since i bought it last year. The possibilities of getting my cell was narrowing down. But, i was still surprised "why it was not found inside the meeting room". I ran into the room again and call up Saurav for help to get my phone. But again, i was hopeless. There is not any place left inside the room to be looked at. So, i had no options than go home. With my sad mood i came back home. I could not sleep well. I just imagined the number of miss calls in my cell phone. I slept late last night. So, i got up at 9.00 this this morning. i was upset. I took a cup of tea. And just pick up Khem dai's cell phone and dialed to my number. The phone was not dead. So, i became sure that it is not out side the home. If it was outside, it should be dead due to cold. Dipin gave me one idea: May be the verizon office might be helpful to track the position/location of my phone set. But it did not work. Instead they were offering me another phone set for $250. I denied this offer. Then, immediately, i took khem dai's phone and went outside to clean up my car again. But it was fruitless. I was almost exhausted and hopeless. At that time i realized how much the technology has bound a human being in a small circle. In this moment, I felt the real attachment and dependence of human being with the machine technology. Anyway, i needed my cell phone. Then i had still a last hope....though small. I went to Saurav apartment again. I removed the couch where i sat yesterday for the whole 4 hours. I removed its seat. But i could not see my cell phone. Nitu told me that they had already spent nearly an hour looking for that.........I was almost about to give up.....i call on the cell again and again but there is no sound.............I took my long breathe...and about to say good bye to Nitu........My mind stroke me with some place..on the couch.....immediately my hand jumped into it....just felt like it was my phone...............MAGICALLY I GOT IT..............FINALLY.......I was so happy.....

Today, i had to meet Monish and Vedbar for Nepal Nite Campaign. The problem was that Vedbar was busy after 10.00 o'clock but there was no time for Monish before 11.00 o'clock. So, we decide to gather at 1.00 o'clock. We moved around the Brookings campaigning our program like postering, fund raising, church booking etc. It took about 3 hours to wrap up work for today. Till then my Cadillac had already drunk about 3 gallon of Premium unleaded gas in this chilly weather. No, problem.....we have to do something this time.....have to make it successful......

Now, it was the time to go for thesis write up. It has been already half a year i started this work. But it is still at infancy. It is very tough.....it needs concentration and dedication. Now-a- days....i don't have any concentration....
I had to go Library for statistical analysis of my phenotypic data. I spent about 4.5 hours in library today. But, i got more than 50 calls during that period..(..decoration committee is doing that...they need this item.....Our pre-designated chief guest has cancelled his attendance in NN08......Meeting to Dr. Hansen and fix the next possible guest.....phone card chahiyo....etc etc etc...)..ufff...thank god i found my lost cell phone.......
This is very clear how far i went today on my thesis work..........Nonetheless...I tried my best today....it was a good day.....I came home at 9.00pm with a whole chicken from WALMART. My kitchen work started with chopping the chicken, cleaning the utensils full of the sink, and ended up cooking DAL, BHAT and Chicken curry.....

OHHHHHHHH........It is VALANTINE'S DAY in Nepal NOW....I forgot it.......I will get very hard time tomorrow .....it's for sure.....

Whatever......I love to sleep now.....i am tired

good nite Brookings!

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Busy day

Yesterday, i had decided to post one blog everyday from now onwards. But, today i got some busy hours. I ended up with no results with my data analysis for the whole day. And in the evening, our meeting for Nepal Nite-2008 lasted for more than 5 hours. Now it is already 1:30 am, Wednesday. Just getting some minutes for breathing. Sometimes, i wish i could get some extra hours beyond the usual usual 24 in a day. But, it goes just in vain. It is really getting late to go to bed now. HAWA CHALYO....SUSTARI SUSTARI....SUSTARI....
...With this sweet melody by Manila...
GOOD NITE Brookings!

Motion

I am pretty cool these days. The Weather outside is forming ice cubes. The cold waves is blowing into the minuscule cavity of the lungs beyond suffocation. But i am smoothly cool and just cool. I am not busy i think. As a daily routine, I peep through my window and keep staring for an hour. I get awaken and immediately try to divert my meaningless reverie. Come to the ground, my hypothalamus immediately warns me. Do what you got to do right now. Again, my brain exercises stimulus on my physique. Well, I must start now. Uhhh....okey where was i headed to last time? What is the point to be started with today? Little bit dilemma there. Which one has got the topmost priority? Which is more important? I have a poor judgment on that. But, Whom i talk to about that? Is there any one for me except myself?....... I have lots of friends....i believe and i trust them....they trust me....and selflessly we do have nice companionship. But, Why my mind always gets me alone when i see some bifurcation on my way which is my ultimate truth. May be i am wrong. I again start thinking to know "what can i get after thinking like such things". This is a huge maze with no way out....I know my weakness...i need plan but i don't have a plan... Now, I wanna ask a question to myself...am i in motion in real sense? or stagnant? Is this a movement or stoppage? I feel everyday...in twenty four hours i am revolving round the earth more than 24 times...I feel so....I reach most of my places which have some meaning in my life ......Beyond this, there are so many spaces that i see everyday..... So, can a science clarify me if i am dynamic or static? The world is moving...the people are not only walking but running in a hurry...they are going to catch an unseen opportunity...they are moving with time....yes, that's right.....i have heard some proverbs "if u travel with time then u can have very long life"...of course i believed it....Now, i am different...I want to see the world how it is moving? What is the true path of movement....what the people are running for (with their 2 eyes that can see some hundreds of feet around his head)...I wanna see the true speed of the time......But, let me think first "What i think for...?" Right now i am thinking "is my thinking sugnificant?" .....Really, Thinking makes me so cool that i always wanted to be...